Get the weight off Wednesday.0

So, I had all these plans on doing this post every single Wednesday about my postpartum weight loss journey.....but now I am second guessing them.

my new scale came today, i stepped on.....and cried.

I was going to post about my current weight and how much I needed to lose, complete with measurements and photos

but I seriously don't know if I can now.

{hence, no pics of me since having miss R}

I am not comfortable with it....in a way I am, but I am just really insecure about it.

Truthfully, I don't even want you, my readers, to see me like this. Let alone anyone else who randomly stops by from the internet.

it terrifies me.

I don't even like my own husband to see me like this. 

{he still thinks i'm hot....but still}

Nothing fits me.

Nothing looks good on me.

Even maternity shirts are too tight now...how?

did I gain weight somewhere? looks like it.

my boobs are so dang huge it's not cool. at.all. 

I hate having big boobs anyways, they make you look fatter than you are. I'd much rather have this big booty with wide hips. guess the grass is always greener.

Maybe next Wednesday will be different, maybe those measurements & photos will be posted...maybe.

I miss the days pre-babies when I was like 112 lbs {which didn't look to good on me, but still}

I don't expect my body to be the same after a baby....i know from having #1

for now....my goal is pretty big.

I wanted it to be done by the Erickson Family Reunion in July {a week in cali!}

but it might not happen like that. Actually, it's not looking good. 

I started working out this week {slowly-for some reason my knees are still hurting} 

Next week we are supposed to start P90X again.

My diet has been pretty good

My goal is to at least work out for 30 min a day, keep drinking about 90-120 oz of water a day, and to lose 1-2 lbs a week

I know I have to do it slowly, no fad diets or extreme weight loss...plus, I'm nursing so I need to protect my supply.

SO this past week, we will call it week 0....since I'm not even cleared to really work out yet

Sunday: Walk 30 min {w/ baby}

Monday: Elliptical 47 min

Tuesday: Walk 45 min {w/ baby}

Today: TBD