un-fantastic friday

Why today?

This early on

It's a sad day when you can't fit into your pants. 

When the only ones that fit are the "fat" jeans {that usually sag in the butt} and the too large maternity jeans {that i'm sure will be snug next month. but still}

it really puts a damper on a good attitude....

I can't help but think....how much weight have I gained? 

how much more am I going to gain?

why can't I do anything about it?

It shouldn't be all about the numbers

but it is

It's inevitable....this I know

it's just hard to accept. 

hard to face the reality of it all.

hard not to get all mad at the baby for doing this {i don't, it's not her fault}

really hard to not get mad or be bitter at those who still wear their normal pants throughout pregnancy and have to buy smaller ones after they give birth.

I hate that it makes me feel inadequate. 

{you should just be happy you are pregnant, you shouldn't feel fat-you're pregnant, you shouldn't compare yourself to others....this isn't a competition....etc. etc.}

maybe you wouldn't understand unless you were in my position

{just like there are things I don't exactly understand about you, since I haven't been there}

The rest of today will be great

I will forget about all this and put a smile on my face

{suffer in silence....right?}

LOL!

oh well, at least I can laugh about it now.